Chapter 406 Don't Want Power
(From Blue's Perspective)
"Yeah, yeah," I mumbled.Nôv(el)B\\jnn
'The black lord's gene is so strong, blah blah blah… Who wants to hear that? Annoying! Whatever that black lord or… Wait! Black lord? I have heard this term before…'
My photographic memory started showing the pages of every single book I read regarding the black lord. Like a tape, my mind played the things everyone said about the black lord, especially the things Ezekiel said. He was the first person to tell me about it.
In the beginning, there were the moon goddess and the black lord. The black lord was called the demon. He had dark powers. He fell in love with the moon goddess and then tricked her to be with him. They gave birth to werewolves. Actually, it was their decision to make werewolves, a different breed since there was already a world where there were humans.
But the black lord grew hungry for power and decided to kill the moon goddess. It seems like he did not actually fall in love with the moon goddess. Rather, he was after her power. There was a fight between them. None of them won and none of them lost. The moon goddess went back to her home, and the moon and the black lord went back underground.
It is said that because of the war, some of the black lord's power was freed in the world and because of that, some werewolves obtained black mana. Since then, their descendants were born with black mana.
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Was Azure the black lord? It was not possible. The story of the black lord and the moon goddess was a legend. No one was sure if it was true. At least, they did not know the whole story. Besides, that was a long time ago.
If the legend was true, then were Azure and the moon goddess 'God'? Since he created werewolves, even if he was evil, Azure would still be considered 'God'. How could a god be my father?
I was losing my mind. I was speculating weird things. If what Ezekiel said was true, then the parents of all the werewolves were the Moon goddess and the black lord. If the black lord was my father, then did it not mean Dem and I had the same father?
'But Dem has a different father. It's the previous King. But in the end, he is a descendant of the black lord too, while I am the black lord's daughter. Isn't that…? My goodness! What am I thinking about?
In Christianity, all humans are the descendants of Adam and Eve. Then, it's fine, I think. Ugh, I don't know!'
"Black lord? What do you mean by the black lord?"
"Don't joke, Princess. There is no one who doesn't know about one and only black lord," he said.
'What I mean is, is this the same black lord as the legend? That's not true, right?'
"Just as the legend says, it is that black lord?" I asked.
He looked at me as if I was crazy, then chuckled. "Princess, is there any other black lord?"
'Oh my god, what the fuck? He must be joking…! I can't be the daughter of a freaking god!'
"He is a god?" I asked, trying to sound as normal as possible.
"He created the werewolves, so he is," he said.
'He is not joking, right?'
My head was spinning. I was not sure if it was because I could not eat, or because I heard some strange and unbelievable things.
I returned to my room, still dazed and confused from the previous short conversation with Lloid.
"You are back. You sure take a long time to eat."
It was Cyan. I had no idea what he was doing in my room, but I was glad he was there. I was scared of him, but I was more scared of the creepy guy. I did not want to be alone with Lloid at all.
"Uh, Cyan is here," I said. "Maybe you can go…"
Lloid usually did not say much when Cyan was there. Was he afraid of Cyan? If he was, it was a good thing.
He left without a word.
Cyan was lying on the bed as if it was his. I actually did not mind. I did not have the right to mind something like that.
"Can I ask you something?" I asked, walking up to the bed.
"No," he replied bluntly.
I decided to ignore that. "Is Azure the black lord who created werewolves?"
"I told you no," he said. "But I am gonna answer this since I am on the mood. He is. Don't you know that? Are you ignorant or what?"
"He is?"
"He is," he repeated. "Don't make me repeat. It's annoying."
"But… the black lord isn't part of just a legend?"
"If he is our father, how can he be just part of a legend? Haven't you wondered something like this when no dark mage could awaken your power?"
"Isn't it because you are too powerful?" he muttered, gritting his teeth.
'Is he jealous? I don't even want this power, dammit. Just take it all from me if you want to. I couldn't care less.'
"Hey, is there any way to transfer my power to you?"
He looked shocked, but that was just for a moment. He suddenly started to laugh loudly. "Are you playing with me?" he asked.
"Why would I do that? Do I look like someone who wants power? This power, I never wanted it. Last year, the master of the magic tower, Luc found out about it. He was the first one to suspect so. My power was not awakened.
So, when I got pregnant, I was having many difficulties. It affected my speech, my regular health, everything."
"You were pregnant?"
"Didn't you know? I thought you all did. I also think it is you all who told Isaac about my pregnancy. It was kept a secret. Isaac told Ezekiel about it who had feelings for him. Both of them made a really evil plan," I said, biting my lip as if to force myself to not cry.
Thinking about my past pregnancy made me very emotional. "I was pregnant for only one month. In my whole life, it was just that one month when I could carry my baby."
"I did not know," he muttered.
"If I did not have that power, maybe I could protect my baby. The baby risked my life. There was a chance that I would not survive if I managed to give birth to it. But Azure did not want that. He could not afford my death because he needs me. He needs me for this damn power!
Tell me then! Why would I want this power?" I broke down in tears unconsciously. "I don't want it! I don't want any of it! I just… I just wanted to have some people who are by my side, I just wanted to survive. Just when I was building my little family, they took my baby away.
All because of this power! I miss my baby… I miss my husband… I want to go back. I want to go home…"
He did not say anything. I just cried for a long time. The silence was the comfort I had. If Dem was with me, he would have hugged me and comforted me. His presence alone offered the kind of comfort that no one else could give.
When I stopped crying, he offered me a napkin. "You look gross," he said. "Wipe your face."
I wiped my face and nose. "Thanks," I muttered.
"Ain't I someone you dislike? Stop being polite to me," he said.
"I don't know… I am not sure if it's because we are twins that I feel like I understand you," I said. "You actually hate Azure, don't you?"
He glared at me, then sighed. "I hate everyone."
I knew why he hated Azure. It was probably because he was not given enough attention since he did not have as much black mana as I had. I heard it from Lloid. He mentioned it to me today on our way back to my room.
I knew Cyan did not have too much black mana from Azure. As a result, I got sick because of excessive black mana while he got sick because of less black mana.
Cyan hated me because I was the reason he got all the hate. If I had less black mana and he had more, no one would hate him. He would get attention too.
I could understand him. It was not my fault that I had more black mana than him, but humans, not always hated someone for a rational reason. It was more of an impulsive decision without rational reasons. I could not blame him for hating me. In the end, he was also a human.
"Can you tell me if Abel and Reece are okay?" I asked. I felt we had gotten slightly closer.
"Let me tell you something else first," he said, sitting up straight on the bed. "You know that our mother is a human and our father is a dark mage, the black lord, right?"
"Yes, I know that," I gave a nod.
"You lived with our mother and I lived with our father. But do you know how those two happened to have made us? They are from different worlds after all. Why would Azure choose her out of all other women?"
"I don't know the truth. But I have a theory."